Monday, October 21, 2013

Passion & Work

Things that we really, really want take a bit of work.

If you wanna make some money, buy a house, mate with a beautiful soul, play an instrument, carry out your purpose or whatever, it takes some work.  But not work like labor, work like energy.  So if you got some passion and heart behind your moves then it feels less like labor and more like flow.

As David Deida puts it,
 "..."fuck" both to smithereens, to ravish them with your love unsheathed, to give your true gifts despite the constant tussle of woman and world, to smelt your authentic gifts in this friction of opposition and surrender, to thrust love from the freedom of your deep being even as your body and mind die blissfully through a crucifixion of inevitable pleasure and pain, attraction and repulsion, gain and loss. No gifts left ungiven. No limit to the depth of being. Only openness, freedom, and love as the legacy of your intercourse with woman and world.

If you are going to tryst with women and world at all, better to go all the way and ravish them from the depths of your true core, blooming them open with the wide gifts of your unrelenting heart. Otherwise, if you sheepishly penetrate them to gratify your own needs, your woman and the world will feel your lack of dedication, depth, and truth. Rather than yielding in love to your loving, they will distract you, suck your energy, and draw you into endless complications, so that your life and relationship become an almost constant search for release from constraint."
Well said.  I'm craving a cigarette and I don't even smoke.

Tuesday, October 15, 2013

My Hypnotherapy

In my first session, she wanted to see how suggestible I was.  I was "out" for at least 20 minutes.  She suggested that I vent my troubles through my dreams and my dreams became vivid - clearly working out the goals that I came up with for hypnotherapy about letting go of the past.

In my second session, she did inner child work.  I found myself at four, wearing a blue dress and smiling in my front yard.  I gave the four-year-old-me gifts and promised to take very good care of her.  Looking into her four-year-old eyes and face, I am inspired to choose well in all areas of my life.

In my third session, we worked on visualizing for the purpose of manifesting my future goals.  It was so much fun!  I could clearly see images and scenes of what I wanted.  Just for fun, she had me name and describe the future.  She wrote it all down so that when it happens, we can confirm how on the mark my vision actually was.

My eating habits have also changed since the first session.  Most noticeably, I am listening and trusting my body.  It has incredible wisdom! Rather than focus on specifics like juicing daily, I feed my body as much or as little as it requests with plenty of variety.  I am going through a warm burrito phase (egg burrito for breakfast, chicken burrito for lunch) - I think it's a response to all the juicing and cold salads I ate for several weeks.

I looked forward to meeting with my hypnotherapist on Monday nights.  It was like eating chocolate cake - yummy.  She said people come back to her even after they achieve their initial goals because it feels like a mental massage. Yeah, I can relate to that.